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all lyrics (c) 2008 bryan lee o'malley


* it's over

these golden ages never last
they slip by in the blink of an eye
and so we try to recreate the past
conditions rearrange so fast
time times place times the people you love
why's that math so difficult to grasp?

i'm on the outs with everyone i've ever met
but my social life is on the mend:
you're my only friend
so please don't crucify me again
most days i'd rather just be dead
but i'm gonna kick this downward trend
you're my only friend

i'm on the outs with everyone i've ever met
but my social life is on the mend


* monday morning

i wake up in a haze
i've been asleep for days
seems like i've been asleep for days
if i fall and hurt myself
the cats would surely run and help
i think it's time i left the house

poker pot and booze
could help me wash away these blues
but monday morning there's no cure
so let's get desperate
the future's building-sized
scraping holes up in the sky
but monday morning there's no cure
monday morning there ain't no cure

so let's get desperate, let's get desperate
we better hurry up or desperation's gonna get us first

so nothing's killed you yet
you've lived through all your fears
and all that wishing you were dead
well if the future looks cold and the past is still warm
then climb back up into the place you were born
cause the only way to have a good time is to go back in time


* indivisible

you're a dream i forget
you're a secret, you're safe with me
i know some pretty famous people
but they're pretty old and boring
and you, you're a mystery
i wouldn't say it's cause you're far away
but i can't complain
i think i like it this way
i'd like to tell you while i've got you on the phone:
i think i'll take you, i think i'd like to keep you

you're a dream: you're unrealistic
you're funny like a taste in my mouth
we might as well be on an island
i mean who's gonna stop me from solving your mysteries?
we spent our time and got close - maybe too close
i got scared, or bored, or both
i pulled away and it was over for me
and i guess that means it's over for you
it's over for you, it's over for you
i'm not here to make your dreams come true
or paint your grey skies blinding blue
i can't divide myself by you

you're a dream: i wonder if i ever had you, but not for long
you used to get me all excited
but i guess you got boring
no more mystery
i can't confirm it's cause you're far away
but don't complain
you'll come to like it this way
and i could send you some apologetic note, but i won't
that's not what i do
that's not what i do, that's not what i do
i'm not here to make your dreams come true
or paint your grey skies blinding blue
i can't divide myself by you


* don't bother

there was a tropical storm out my window
the cats were asleep and alive and she still loved me
someone once told me the future is history
and the past is still happening, and the present's a mystery
but i didn't believe them, cause i don't believe anything
whether i read it or see it on tv
everything is far away, and i'm in my head all day
and nothing is bothering me

it was raining as hard as this, as hard as it ever did
but this is the future, and that was a funeral
and it's typical, isn't it? 
to think of it as a catalyst
the death of a loved one, like you're shot out of a cannon
but i didn't feel that way, cause i don't feel anything
unless i get to read it or rent the dvd
everything is far away, and i'm in my head all day
and nothing is bothering me

the golden age is gonna end before it starts
i'm gonna make a million friends
and then i'll throw them all away, just like the old ones
see, i've got a vested interest in breaking hearts

i had all the answers right there in front of me
but i spent all day sleeping and playing nintendo
someone once told me the journey of a thousand miles
it starts with just one thought in your head
but i don't think i thought it, cause i never think at all
i only read comic books and the words on the tv
everything seems far away, but it's gonna be here one day
the future's as tall as a tree
but i wouldn't know it, cause i don't know anything
and nothing is bothering me


* good book

do you think of her despite yourself?
does she hit you like a revelation?
does she come to you when you're weakest?
does she slip through the cracks to fill up the gaps
and for a second does it all make sense?

it's like the good book says:
she's just not that into you
i know her exploits alarm you
but i don't think she ever meant to harm you
if you could turn back time
it's been a while since the two of you were speaking
and if you could have stopped yourself from freaking
maybe you would still be friends
and maybe that was meant to be the end
either way, please stop trying again

do you think of her to spite yourself?
does she hit you like a left hook?
does she come to you when you need it?
does she slip through the cracks to widen the gaps?
and suddenly it all makes sense

cause like the good book says:
she's just not that into you
i know your paths are divergent
but you're acting like it's never been so urgent
so get off your meds
i remember when you used to kinda make sense
and this was just a random act of god, an accident
maybe we can still be friends
or maybe she was right to be the wedge in between us
either way, please stop calling
at least for a little while

like the good book says:
she's just not that into you
you know your passion disturbs her
but on the other hand you never did deserve her
so go back to bed
and i bet you'll feel better when you wake up
and you could gain some new perspective on the breakup
it's gonna take time to mend
and if you really can't be friends ever again, let it go
please stop gritting your teeth
at least for a little while



* the way we were

you can have him cause he is poison
and yes i loved you but that was a long time ago
and i've been waiting for my moment
always lining all my ducks up in a row

see i've been hurt too and i will hurt again
and yes i loved you but you put me in my place
and now you're smiling or at least there's something
for me to wipe off your beautiful face

see my pain is extra-complicated
it's not just some general malaise
and my dreams have been obliterated
in a hundred different ways

you can have him because he loved you
we'll meet up later at the end of it all
and how i've waited for that moment
to see you crumble to see you crushed to see you crawl

and yes i killed him and he deserved it
but you know it hurt me to put him in his place
and now you're smiling or at least there's something
for me to wipe off your beautiful face

don't you remember when we were standing on the edge
oh for those carefree bittersweet long-ago wonderful days
oh for the calm before
oh for the eye of the storm
oh for the way we were


* if you weren't such an asshole

if you weren't such an asshole
maybe i'd be more inclined to call
and we could talk about the old days, the good days
before it all went to shit
but things tend to
i mean it's no-one's fault
unless it is
and if it is, it's probably yours

and if you weren't such an asshole
maybe it woulda turned out some other way
and we wouldn't have just squandered all our potential
back in the day
but the days got short and times got tough
but that's not your fault
so it's probably mine...

if you weren't such an asshole
where would we be now?
see, i keep on moving forward, like a sucker
and i'm sick of how we all grow up
and we all grow old
and we pump out kids or we turn out gay
or we move back home or we move back away
and we all get hurt and we all gotta die
and we've all got a shared history, but I'm 
gonna kick this downward trend
I've got enough friends


* donut lagoon

we talk for hours and it's just
like it was before except it's not
because this wall's gone up and it's
higher than my brain can think but i think
i wish i had a jetpack or a 
harrier or a raccoon tail
or a b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-bomb
i would kick & punch my way to your heart

i think of you again and it
hurts a little less but it still hurts
and it's still weird for me and i
want it to be this weird for you
and i think of you again & again (etc)

and i would be your pity case
i would be your cause celebre if it
meant more of your sweet embrace
i would be your embarassment, come on

i would take what you would give
but you aren't giving anything
you're a forest of illusion
you're an empty treasure chest
you're a gold foil chocolate coin
but i'm okay with that
cause i would claw & scratch my way to your heart

i've got enough for everyone
my head is about to explode
it's gonna E X P L O D E
i'll make you see the one for you is me
see i try & i try & i try & i try to forget
but it all comes back

...and i think of you again...


* don't let the archons get you down

don't let the archons get you down
cause they've been trying to for countless millenia
don't let our crumbling civilization make you frown
it's make things easier i swear
if you pretend that it was never even there
don't let the rising ocean levels swallow all of your ideas
write them down
shoot them into space, or put them in the ground
and one day they'll be found

oh it's hard when you're torn
when you can't visualize your face from before you were born
when you can't figure out your place in this huge human race
well slow down, slow down

don't let the future stop you now
you may not have one anyway
don't let our petty human bullshit bring you down
it'd make things easier i bet
if you pretend that you're an adult, and you're above all that
don't let the strains of time & space muddle your fragile little mind
try and calm down
just shut your eyes and hum, remember you are dumb
chill the fuck out

because it's hard when you're torn
when you can't visualize your face from before you were born
when you can't figure out your place in this huge human race
well slow down, slow down, slow down
cause it's not a race


* whatever

she keeps me alive like a baby bird she found on the sidewalk
she's my ears and my eyes
she's the system that guides me, my motor, my drive
she keeps me inspired
keeps me mobile and useful and facing the light
and there's nowhere i'd rather be than wherever she is tonight

keep me on the brink
teach me what to think
wake me up when we're extinct

under the moon and over the crowd
the last leaves are falling, i guess they're allowed
over the trees and under the sky
i can't see the stars, but i don't wonder why
over the hills and all through the night
everything is gonna be alright
cause there's no-one i'd rather see than whoever you are tonight
there's nothing i'd rather be than whatever you want tonight

lay me on the floor
shut and bolt the door
don't tell me no more
keep me on the brink
teach me what to think
wake me up when we're extinct

keep me alive, keep me alive, keep me alive, etc